Sunday, June 01, 2008
My days haf not been great since 2 days ago....wif de help of some1...it did improve until i asked a selfish question that got me entagled in a mix of fury...quarrel...sadness and more importantly got me into thinkin...1 selfish question which put my r/s on de line...dumb? not really....at least it made some1 speak up...to daringly call me selfish....n also made de person realise i m de bastard n jerk that i haf always said i was...well...de first thing that actually upsetted me was abt my sis...cus i can totally understand how it feels to lose de 1 u really love and truely noe that it's not jus a r/s that is lost but happiness that can only be found in that r/s...i admit i sldnt be angry at him for not givin my sis another chance...but i merely wanted de best for my sis...den agn...ppl change...aint it?? even if he gives her another chance...he prolly wldnt be hu he was before...still...i believe that at least n until we haf tried...we sldnt assume n gif up jus yet...sorry mei i can't do anythin to help u get back ur happiness...but if u sld need some1 to talk to or be dere...i really wish u wld look me up...wo bi jing hai shi ni jie...06: Everytime i encounter a setback in my r/s...i think of u...haf u not taught me all i needed to learn? i always tot that wat u haf given me was enough to bring me thru de rest of my life...but each time i encounter a problem...i ask myself wat it is u haf forgotten to teach me...or was it me hu hasn't learnt....i dunno...i miss u...n wish u wld come back n assist my lifeGer: hey...i noe u'll chance upon this post 1 day...but when exactly i really won't noe...in any case..jus thot u sld noe how much i wish to call n talk to u...but i noe now is de common test period for u n thus i sldnt be disturbing...as this post tells u....i'm facing a setback in my life...actually not just my own r/s...but my sis's too...in any case i really hope we'd meet soon...den i shall share wif u more...Polar Bear: hey dere silly bear...i noe it's my mistake to ask about him...i really din try to do it at de expense of ya feelings...i was thinkin n came to this thot whereby i found was justifiable as to y i asked u de question...i know rite from de start i was nv gonna be ur perfect 1...but at de end of our r/s...i din wan u to hate me...n so i thot dat if i cld find out y u hated him so much...den i cld prevent it frm happenin so that when our own r/s came to a halt...we cld still be frens n u wun hate me...i dunno how to put it thru to u but...it wld really help if u cld open up n explain things to me rather than always pushin it aside until my inquisitive side makes u explode...i did warn u i was a curious idiot...no doubt i love to talk but i think it wld be nice if sometimes u cld do de serious talk once in a while...share abit of wat u were like when u were young...tell me more abt how u wld like to be treated to feel pampered...all in a nice way n not wait till we quarrel den shout out wat it is u dislike so much abt me...it wld also help if wld share ur thots about things wif me...like wat defines a r/s...wat is it that makes a r/s...wat u wan out of a r/s...de things u haf been thru in ya life...pls dun be afraid to share thots wif me...after all u haf already seen all my weaker sides...on top of dat...u ar de only 1 i haf confessed to to having pms...n dun always belittle urself...u haf really been a great gf to me...despite ur bad attitude...let's jus say everybody has their strength n weaknesses...every r/s has it's pros n cons...as long as u haf tried...jus explain it to me...i can't expect u to be my perfect bear...but at de very least in order for me to also accomodate u...u got to speak to me in order for me to find it justifiable...dun be upset anymore k...i hope this tides over SOON...
Beautiful Intentions | 9:42 PM
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