yest was Ah Fang's bday party...parties are always meant to be a happy event but yest just wasn't...de moment i went to de playground...Jie Jac told me to get Selina to bathe cus she poured coke on herself...i tot it was merely a tantrum but when i saw Selina i knew it wasn't...she conered herself and was cryin...sayin that she wanted to die...some ppl got angry hearin abt this...some wld think it's jus kid's tantrums...but to me...it hurts really deeply...how can a child that's barely even 6 be thinkin about death?? wat cld haf hurt a purely innocent kid so much that they wld tk a can tab to attempt to cut themselves??? i cldn't understand her thot but her cryin made me cry...seein her say such things jus makes me feel so hurt...i teared jus hearin her say "i dun care i dun care!!! i wan to die!!!" luckily she was able to hear me out n allow me to carry her home to bathe n den be ok to play agn...
all that she had said and done made me really think back on the me i used to be...de suicidal tots i had...while talkin to her i realised even more that ppl sldn't be suicidal because it will not affect de 1 dat made u suicide but rather it is those that matters to u n vice versa who will be hurt n upset by the things u ar goin thru... Being me...i always TRY not to cry...though i admit now i dare to be more expressive n not always try to keep it in...in any case...although Selina's behaviour made me cry...i am thankful for the silent comfort dat silly bear provided jus by touchin my arm...wasnt a big gesture nor was it for long but it gave me comfort...thankew silly polar bear...
-=[whuever says love isn't the greatest thing only says so because they haf frozen]=-
Beautiful Intentions | 9:14 PM