Thursday, May 28, 2009
I'm tryin to recover...but it still feels kinda hollow inside....how did i let things turn out this way??? Even until today i still browse the sms we once exchanged. I do still open de doc you once made for us and the ppt frm you as a half yr anni gift. Everything still feels so fresh. Still rem how you got angry jus cus i paid for a movie ticket. And with dat 1 sms of yours it created a pathway for us. I'll forever rem dat sms cus i've really nv come across any1 else who would tell me that they're "lyin in bed, reading comics, shaking legs and trying to ignore my msg". That was absolutely cute. Of cus i also do rem how we were once teased during your prac. How i was always made to use you for demos. You made a great first impression cus u were early and dressed de most appropriately. First time i felt hrtbroken fer u was at de chalet when you cried. Wanted to comfort you but i was just a nobody. I was afraid and of cus shy when i was tickling your hand for a respond but i must really thankyou for stopping me frm buyin a drink dat nite. It was for me an encouragement n with dat i got to hold u for the first time. We talked crap and warned each other of our que dians. Gave each other another chance to walk out on each other but nope, we lasted 20mths. We rented our first subaru and played thru the nights. Waiting for you to close shop nv was boring, in fact i enjoyed it so much. We travelled to Redang and you actually snorkelled!!!! =) Of cus with all the good times came the bad. We quarrelled and had our fair share of tears but dat only goes to show how much you meant to me that i was willing to lose my tears. The greatest surprise i got from our whole journey? Our baby girl. I still rem de first nite u had to keep her in de laundry area, you already was so attached that you cried and sms me abt how you bu she de leaving her there alone dat you stayed and played a little longer. You were so worried that she'll dislike you for treating her like that but look what knd of bond you share wif her now? I know she loves you and will love you for as long as she lives. And im glad she's dere to love you cus i'm not supposed to love you anymore. We may no longer be together but i still hope i can be her daddy. I mean after all "real" parents are not changable.
Beautiful Intentions | 8:48 PM
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